Lucas

What a great idea.

After nine weeks of not posting, i come up with this. But seriously, check it out... so i was reading this fic. What it's about and who it concerns doesn't matter, so don't get scared. Anyway, this is a rather old fic and someone is talking to Tim Burton. Just dig this quote.

"You don’t think they’ll revolt because we couldn’t use Michelle again?"
I shake my head. "Nah... If they bought Michael Keaton as Batman, there’s no reason not to buy Alyson Hannigan as Catwoman."

*dies*
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Lucas

Ever wonder what "emo" really means?

Well, i found it, thanks to a friend on PonyIsland.

SIMPLE PLAN LYRICS

Welcome To My Life


Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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Lucas

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Last night i went out without the baby for the first time since he was born. I stored up enough milk for one feeding and went to Perkins for a good 3 1/2 hours or so.
I drank coffee. Man, it felt good to be human. And without a screaming child hanging from my chest.
Next week i hope to store some more and go out to BWW and maybe -gasp- drink alcohol!!!

Okay, i admit it. I was a little glad to get home last night. He's awful cute when he's sleeping, you know.
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Lucas

What do you want from me... blood??

It's 2:30 in the afternoon and i'm awake. This is not of the good.

Anyway, there's an memo going around work about Francis Yorgovan. In case you don't know, Franny (one of the gay club boys that hangs at Denny's, i work with him) got run over by a car on August 4th and he's in a coma. They've prepped him for long-term care and don't expect him to wake up for 6 months to a year, but he gives small signs that he can hear you when you talk to him. Anyway, he has no health insurance and the memo says that you can donate blood in his name and it will help offset the medical costs. No clue if this is through UNMC, where he's hospitalized, or what, but i'm going to try to get Bryce to do it. I obviously can't (they seem to take offense to having pregnancy hormones in the blood) but i at least want to spread the word.

Ah, the pup has heard the clacking of the keyboard and is requesting attention. I suppose i shall go oblige and try to snooze on the couch for a while.
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Lucas

Dammit.

Got a rejection email from Cox. PayPal's on a hiring freeze. I'm trapped, trapped, trapped. I could just scream.

Why the hell wouldn't Cox hire me?
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Lucas

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I am in an emotional whirlwind at the moment, and the sinus infection isn't helping.

Let's see, i got a new tattoo! It covers my upper arm and features ponies from Escape from Midnight Castle. It's only the outline right now, but i'll try to post pics as soon as i get them from the camera. But now i won't be able to get it colored until next year because i found out for sure yesterday that i'm PREGNANT!

Yeah, this is where the whirlwind part comes in.

My husband is excited. My family and friends are, too. But it's really difficult for me to prepare for something good happening in the (seemingly) distant future. I'm only 2-6 weeks along, and i keep thinking it's too early for me to be excited yet. Too many bad things can still happen. I suppose this is the problem with not cultivating hope for the future and taking things one day at a time. Because pregnancy, well, it's all about future.

And what if everything does turn out okay and we *gasp* have a healthy kid? I can barely take care of my dog. She's chewing on things more than ever in the last week, right in front of me even! I have no control over her during walks or if she gets in the front yard. My house is a giant mess (partly because of her) and i'm so tired after working i don't want to do house work but i can't sleep because of insomnia so i end up on line and am entirely non-productive and then i get depressed because i'm a bad housekeeper which makes me even more listless and tired and now i'm nauseous on top of everything else and oh my gods and goddesses i'm a wreck. *takes breath* So how in the world am i going to keep up with a baby? I probably could if i didn't have to work, but we definitely can't afford that now.

My sister calling daily to harp on me about quitting smoking isn't helping, either. I haven't had one since i woke up at 10 but her calling is almost driving me to it. We never did get along.

Anyway, i am rather tentativly excited. Kinda scared to be, but there you go. If i can get this job i'm applying for i think it will help a lot. I really can't stay at my current one much longer. And i'm sure after my first doctor's appointment (Aug 2) i'll be able to relax a bit and really start planning. I just needed to get this all off my chest, sorry to ramble at ya'll!
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Lucas

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Poor Gypsy. We just got home from the vet. She's got a fever and she's dehydrated, and hasn't kept any food down for almost two days. They put her on some antibiotics, but we have to feed her barium tonight and get another x-ray tomorrow morning. She's a Lab (notorious chewers), so she could have some kind of blockage in her stomach or small intestine (both of which were full and swollen in today's x-ray). They're hoping that the barium will just pass through, and if it does she'll just keep taking antibiotics until she feels better. If not... well, surgery might be necessary.

She's just so darn quiet... it's not like her at all. I'm pretty worried about her. And this is really not going to be kind to our pocketbooks. I know that sounds kinda heartless and should be the least of the worries, but it's still gonna make it a bit tough for us. The shots she got today are making her pretty sleepy, so i think we're gonna take a nice long nap together. I just hope she'll be okay.
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Lucas

After a couple weeks of nonstop stress...

Mocha Mudslide ice cream. Smirnoff ice. Aqua Teen Hunger Force on dvd. My favorite King novel. Full pack of smokes. A new filly on PonyIsland. A puppy to cuddle with when i snooze. A Bear to cuddle with when i wake up. A job that i don't have to go to tonight.

Some days, life is pretty good.
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